Nothing sticks inside mind like regrets. How many nights have I settled into bed, sleep mere moments away, simply to be yanked away by memories of missteps? Should I have asked her out? Did I spend sufficient time with my grandfather before he died? Why didn’t I lie whenever they put me immediately?
In my museum of regrets, one piece stands above all the rest. A PlayStation disc, purchased used from your Hollywood Video, its black underbelly scratched…perhaps thrown in rage by its previous victims. On the front, a mutant’s joyless grin as well as the title Resident Evil 3: Nemesis.
About nine or 10 years old, and already while using first 2 games already under my belt, I went in it with all the confidence of youth. Slowly, during the period of weeks, I was broken. Resident Evil 3 was greater than I could handle.
Now, Capcom has announced a remake, sufficient reason for it I have a possibility to conquer the demons of my youth.
Slowly, over the course of weeks, I was broken. Resident Evil 3 was over I could handle.
Armed with limited weapons and ammo, Resident Evil 3 (like its predecessors) tasks you with navigating a zombie outbreak, and some occasionally cruel camera angles, while foraging to maintain your always-strained supplies from drained. Resource management is the vital thing. Do you try to run by that zombie down the alley, or shoot him with one of your ten remaining bullets, knowing you might not find more for some time?
RE3 added a new wrinkle. The eponymous Nemesis, a hulking zombie that pursues you through the game. Although RE2 had attempted the same figure — a bald, trench coat-clad fellow generally known as Mr. X — Nemesis took the idea to new extremes.
He was relentless. Anywhere you went, he could appear, whether leaping by having a window or politely opening a door behind you, hissing the saying “Stars” (his goal is usually to kill every individuals the S.TA.R.S. police unit, including protagonist Jill Valentine). Like a big, patchwork Sting, he’s watching every move you’re making.
I determine what you’re thinking. Big zombie? Just outrun him! You would be wrong. Like a young Shaq, Nemesis is created as being a tank but moves with all the speed of a gazelle, and he desires to dunk your skull into the pavement. He’s immortal, too. Go ahead and empty your whole arsenal into him. The best you’ll do is knock him down for awhile.
Resident Evil 2 built up my resistance to the series’ shambling zombies and brutish grotesques, but I wasn’t prepared for Nemesis. The atmosphere of constant paranoia was excessive for my young heart to adopt. Hunted ceaselessly, I was forced to confront inevitability itself, the realization that point along with the universe would go forward regardless how I struggled.
Fleeing from Nemesis, I understood for the first time that I was mortal. One day my skin will sag, my bones will crumble, and I will be only a great deal dust scattered across a tiny slice with the cosmos.
I never beat Resident Evil 3. Although I put the game down, Nemesis didn’t stop pursuing me. His cold gaze is reflected in every unfinished project, every failed New Year’s resolution, every night spent staring your window, glass of whisky at hand, as Moonlight Sonata creeps out of my speakers.
Fleeing from Nemesis, I understood the very first time that I was mortal.
Whenever I’m asked my greatest weakness, I bite my lip, resisting the impulse to confess that I am forever haunted by my failure to get over Resident Evil 3. “Um,” I stammer instead, “I guess I just work too much.”
So, when rumors began to swirl that Capcom was working on a remake of RE3, I felt my pulse quicken, a cold tide of sweat chilling me as I considered seeing my old foe once again. This time in high definition.
But I’m not a child anymore. I can’t live inside the past. Life rarely will give you another chance, a trial at redemption, but that’s what I will spot using the return of Resident Evil 3. I’ve been hardened with the travails of adulthood, by hours of fleeing from your upgraded Mr. X in 2019’s Resident Evil 2 remake.
I’ll be waiting, Nemesis. This time, I’ll be well prepared.